Weigh in Wednesday #4 (pre-Thanksgiving addition)

This week has been a struggle. My blood sugar has been a bit wonky and I am not feeling so great. The hubby has been sick and so is my carpool buddy, so Lord only knows what my body is trying to fight off!

Thanksgiving is tomorrow and with it a 4 day weekend for me. So I fully expect that I will be reporting weight gain by this time next week. Well, actually I have to report some weight gain today, since I have gained about a pound since last Wednesday. Here are my current numbers:

Current weight: 254lbs
Current Fasting blood sugar: 99

My weight has been fluctuating a lot over the past week, the highest number being 256. It is so FRUSTRATING!! But I just keep plodding away (literally since my primary exercise at the moment is walking) and trying not to be too discouraged. Life is, after all, a series of hills and valleys, highs and lows. Why would weight loss be any different?

Do me a favor, will you? Keep me in your prayers. And my hubby, he is trying to quit smoking and is really struggling. He wants to quit, but has smoked for his entire adult life, it is a huge part of his day and his identity. He needs God's strength and his inspiration to find a new way to live cigarette free.

Thank you, and Happy Thanksgiving!! :)

Love this!!

Friday Funnies

We have a cold front blowing in, which in this part of Texas means that the temps are dropping from the 70's and 80's into the 40's and 50's. And maybe some 30's at night. Rain is also expected, so I am looking forward to a quiet weekend cuddled up with a good book! :-) 

LOVE HIM!

 

amen!

 

 

hehehehe

 

scarey

 

important truth

 And this one is just a reminder. Have a beautiful and blessed day! 

Weigh in Wednesday #3

Happy Hump Day!

Are you as excited as I am that Friday is in sight?? This feels like it has been the longest week, probably because I know Thanksgiving is right around the corner and with it a 3 day work week and 4 day weekend! :)

Of course, Thanksgiving means food and food means weight gain. And frankly, days off mean laziness and that also means weight gain! This is something I have to work on, this laziness. I just haven't been motivated to exercise on my days off, and if I don't exercise the weight creeps back up.

Now, let's take a look at this week's numbers:

Current Weight: 253.4lbs
Current Fasting Blood Sugar: 117

Last week #'s were 255.8lbs and 99 for the blood sugar. So I have lost a total of 2.4lbs since last Wednesday! Sad thing is, I had lost those 2lbs by last Friday, gained them back over the weekend and had to lose them all over again. Dang creeping pounds, they keep finding their way back to me! But still, we are making progress, so I will take it. I just have to keep reminding myself that I didn't gain the weight overnight and I am not going to lose it that way. I started this weight loss effort in October and I weighed in at 263lbs. 10lbs in about a month and a half isn't going to set any records, but it is more that I have managed to lose in a long time. My current weight is the lowest it has been in 2 years (at least)! :)

That's all for today, I have to wrap this up and get on my feet for some walking!

Friday Funnies

Here we are again, Friday..... 

TGIF!

complete cuteness!

right?!?! I wonder this often!

this one is hysterical to me! 

this one too!

Go make it a great day!

Weigh in Wednesday #2

Welcome to Wednesday and the 2nd installment of my "Weigh In" series. If you are curious, you can find #1 here.

All this internal focus on weight got me started thinking about how I have always perceived myself. I can't remember ever thinking that I wasn't overweight. Even when I think of myself as a child, I picture a fat kid. But that isn't really a true image. I wasn't "fat". I was just your average kid, not too skinny and not too fat. So, where did this distorted self image come from? I can't recall anyone in my life (parents, siblings, friends) ever saying or doing anything that would have put this idea in my head. And it seems too simple to blame "society". It is something I will have to give more thought to.

Anyway, enough of that for now! On to our current numbers! 

Current Weight: 255.8lbs
Fasting blood sugar: 99

I am very proud of my fasting blood sugar, though I think it is a fluke. I have NEVER had a number that low. Even so, I am happy to claim it. As to my weight, well, I can't say I am over the moon about it, but it is a decrease from last Wednesday so I can't complain too much. I knew this was going to be a slow process, not an overnight one. Actually, I had managed to get down to 254 and stay there almost the entire 3 day weekend, but by Tuesday morning I had crept up to to 256. So the fact that I made it down to 255 isn't so bad. (I am trying to stay positive here!)

That's all for now. I have to wrap this up and do a little walking before work! Have a great day and remember that no matter how you see yourself, God sees you with more depth and clarity and loves everything He sees.

What are you reading?

I love to read. I think we have covered this in earlier posts, right?!?

 Right now I am finishing up "Allegiant" by Veronica Roth. This is the 3rd book in the series that began with "Divergent". I am going to miss these characters when I am done. They are interesting and complex, a great mixture of fragility and strength, of anger and love. In other words, very real. I have enjoyed this peek into a world so different from my own very much, it is so different and yet the humanity of it is so much the same. For example, I found the following passage really spoke to my heart about my own relationship.

"I used to think that when people fell in love, they just landed where they landed, and they had no choice in the matter afterward. And maybe that's true of beginnings, but it's not true of this, now."

"I fell in love with him. But I don't stay with him by default as if there's no one else available to me. I stay with him because I choose to, every day that I wake up, every day that we fight or lie to each other or disappoint each other. I choose him over and over again, and he chooses me."

I choose him and he chooses me. Every day. Over and over again. Not because we don't have other choices available to us, but because those choices pale in comparison to what who we already have. I can't imagine my life without him in it. Plain and simple. He is perfect for me. I love him.

Don't you just love those moments when a story speaks the words hidden deep in your heart, words you didn't even realize were there until you read them?

Friday Funnies

Sorry I missed last Friday (and the one before maybe, I can't remember). I am back on track now!

Now let's get to it! 

my kind of logo!

 

this made me giggle!

 

Isn't He adorable???

 

 

Amen!!

Now, let's get out there and share some smiles! Have a great day! :)

 

Sweetest baby face

Isn't she the sweetest thing?? I  love this girl.

Weigh in Wednesday

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Holy crap, I really can't believe I am even attempting to write this post. I have been debating with myself for a couple of weeks about this idea of 'Weigh in Wednesday". The idea came to me while I was reading "Daring Greatly" by Brene Brown. If you haven't read it, well, you should. It is a very interesting look at our fear of being vulnerable, and how overcoming that fear will allow us to connect to the world around us in a new way.

To be fair, the book has NOTHING to do with weight loss, so why it triggered this idea was a bit of a mystery at first. I literally couldn't understand the connection my own mind was making between being vulnerable and a post about my progress (or lack of it) in the area of weight loss. But the mystery didn't last long, because I know what my biggest secret is. I know the thing that I NEVER share with anyone, the thing that embarrasses and humiliates me. The numbers on the scale. I do not ever tell anyone how much I weigh. EVER. So, when this idea presented itself my knee jerk reaction was "HECK NO!". But the notion has remained in the back of my mind. It won't let go of me, so I am going to do it. I am going to give you the numbers I hate the most in this world.

Current weight: 256.6lbs
Fasting blood sugar: 125


At the first of October I started a new weight loss plan. It was simple really, I went from 3 large meals a day to 5 to 6 much smaller meals and I started walking. Before I started adding steps to my day I was averaging about 2500 steps (I have a very sedentary job). That is NOT much. I wanted to get in at least 10,000 a day (still working on that!) so I started walking in the mornings before work, often times standing in front of the TV (like being on a treadmill, only no treadmill required). At first my blood sugar went nuts, so I had to really monitor it and my diet closely. It has leveled out now, which makes things much easier. Prior to October, my fasting blood sugar was running around 140 to 150 in the mornings. (For those not in the "know", that is high. Normal blood sugar usually stays around 70-90 and anything above about 125 is considered diabetic.) So, I am very happy with my 125 this morning.

Now, my weight, that is another matter. At the first of October I weighed in at 264. It took 2 weeks to lose 4lbs and then 2 days to gain back 2. And that is the way it has been, I will lose a few pounds and gain a little back over the weekend (relaxing too much). I get so frustrated by the whole process! I am having to fight for every single ounce I lose, and I HATE every second of it. I know without a doubt that if I am not careful I could gain back every bit of the 8 pounds I have lost in a matter of hours! It is frustrating and embarrassing and makes me feel like a fat slob and a failure..

That last sentence is precisely why I think I need to share these numbers here. It is embarrassing. It is frustrating. And I do feel like a failure. Going "public" is scarey. It puts me in a very vulnerable place. I am going to risk it because I feel like hiding these numbers gives them too much power over me. So, I am going to try this "weigh in" every Wednesday. I don't know how long it will last. I hope a long time, with numbers that continue to decrease (realistically I know that won't always be the case). I hope I don't bore you too much, I hope you understand where I am coming from and why I need to do this. And I hope you will pray for me.