Weigh in Wednesday

Well, it's been a few weeks since I posted an update. I wish I could report good news but I can't. I have really been slipping in the exercise and in controlling my diet. Over my break my weight has fluctuated quite as bit, ending today on the high side. Hopefully I can reverse this trend! Stay tuned and say a prayer for me!

Current weight: 258lbs
Current Fasting blood sugar: 129

pardon my french! ;)

Weigh in Wednesday #6

Blah!

My current number look like this:

Weight: 254.2lbs
Fasting blood sugar: 91

I have been blogging about this for 6 weeks now and my net loss has amounted to 2lbs.

Blah!

Now if you will excuse me, I am going to go walk and fantasize about hot fudge sundays.

Weigh in Wednesday #5 (Post Thanksgiving addition)

I haven't been blogging much. I didn't even do my Friday Funnies last week and that is the easiest post to create as there is very little thought required! I just haven't been feeling very bloggy for a while now. I sit down at the computer and all my thoughts disappear.

Currently my oldest fur baby, Jonah, is attempting to crawl in my lap. He is 19 years old and is really starting to show his advanced age. He is losing some weight and sleeping a lot more. And wanting to cuddle. He has always loved me best but he has never really been a lap cat. He will sit beside me on the couch but hated to be held. But lately when I sit down he crawls up on my lap and just purrs his heart out. I love it, but I worry. I am not ready to let my baby go!

 

 

Jonah

Anyway! Here are my current numbers:

Weight: 254.8lbs  (last week 254lbs, up 0.8lbs)
Fasting blood sugar: 121 (last week 91)

I actually managed pretty well over the holiday, at least until Sunday. Then I kinda derailed on leftovers and gained 2lbs. All in all I am happy enough with these numbers. I really thought it would be worse!

Me on an average day!

I better run, I have some kitchen cleaning to do and I need to walk a bit before work! I hope you have a wonderful Wednesday!

God Bless!

Weigh in Wednesday #4 (pre-Thanksgiving addition)

This week has been a struggle. My blood sugar has been a bit wonky and I am not feeling so great. The hubby has been sick and so is my carpool buddy, so Lord only knows what my body is trying to fight off!

Thanksgiving is tomorrow and with it a 4 day weekend for me. So I fully expect that I will be reporting weight gain by this time next week. Well, actually I have to report some weight gain today, since I have gained about a pound since last Wednesday. Here are my current numbers:

Current weight: 254lbs
Current Fasting blood sugar: 99

My weight has been fluctuating a lot over the past week, the highest number being 256. It is so FRUSTRATING!! But I just keep plodding away (literally since my primary exercise at the moment is walking) and trying not to be too discouraged. Life is, after all, a series of hills and valleys, highs and lows. Why would weight loss be any different?

Do me a favor, will you? Keep me in your prayers. And my hubby, he is trying to quit smoking and is really struggling. He wants to quit, but has smoked for his entire adult life, it is a huge part of his day and his identity. He needs God's strength and his inspiration to find a new way to live cigarette free.

Thank you, and Happy Thanksgiving!! :)

Love this!!

Weigh in Wednesday #3

Happy Hump Day!

Are you as excited as I am that Friday is in sight?? This feels like it has been the longest week, probably because I know Thanksgiving is right around the corner and with it a 3 day work week and 4 day weekend! :)

Of course, Thanksgiving means food and food means weight gain. And frankly, days off mean laziness and that also means weight gain! This is something I have to work on, this laziness. I just haven't been motivated to exercise on my days off, and if I don't exercise the weight creeps back up.

Now, let's take a look at this week's numbers:

Current Weight: 253.4lbs
Current Fasting Blood Sugar: 117

Last week #'s were 255.8lbs and 99 for the blood sugar. So I have lost a total of 2.4lbs since last Wednesday! Sad thing is, I had lost those 2lbs by last Friday, gained them back over the weekend and had to lose them all over again. Dang creeping pounds, they keep finding their way back to me! But still, we are making progress, so I will take it. I just have to keep reminding myself that I didn't gain the weight overnight and I am not going to lose it that way. I started this weight loss effort in October and I weighed in at 263lbs. 10lbs in about a month and a half isn't going to set any records, but it is more that I have managed to lose in a long time. My current weight is the lowest it has been in 2 years (at least)! :)

That's all for today, I have to wrap this up and get on my feet for some walking!

Weigh in Wednesday #2

Welcome to Wednesday and the 2nd installment of my "Weigh In" series. If you are curious, you can find #1 here.

All this internal focus on weight got me started thinking about how I have always perceived myself. I can't remember ever thinking that I wasn't overweight. Even when I think of myself as a child, I picture a fat kid. But that isn't really a true image. I wasn't "fat". I was just your average kid, not too skinny and not too fat. So, where did this distorted self image come from? I can't recall anyone in my life (parents, siblings, friends) ever saying or doing anything that would have put this idea in my head. And it seems too simple to blame "society". It is something I will have to give more thought to.

Anyway, enough of that for now! On to our current numbers! 

Current Weight: 255.8lbs
Fasting blood sugar: 99

I am very proud of my fasting blood sugar, though I think it is a fluke. I have NEVER had a number that low. Even so, I am happy to claim it. As to my weight, well, I can't say I am over the moon about it, but it is a decrease from last Wednesday so I can't complain too much. I knew this was going to be a slow process, not an overnight one. Actually, I had managed to get down to 254 and stay there almost the entire 3 day weekend, but by Tuesday morning I had crept up to to 256. So the fact that I made it down to 255 isn't so bad. (I am trying to stay positive here!)

That's all for now. I have to wrap this up and do a little walking before work! Have a great day and remember that no matter how you see yourself, God sees you with more depth and clarity and loves everything He sees.

Weigh in Wednesday

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Holy crap, I really can't believe I am even attempting to write this post. I have been debating with myself for a couple of weeks about this idea of 'Weigh in Wednesday". The idea came to me while I was reading "Daring Greatly" by Brene Brown. If you haven't read it, well, you should. It is a very interesting look at our fear of being vulnerable, and how overcoming that fear will allow us to connect to the world around us in a new way.

To be fair, the book has NOTHING to do with weight loss, so why it triggered this idea was a bit of a mystery at first. I literally couldn't understand the connection my own mind was making between being vulnerable and a post about my progress (or lack of it) in the area of weight loss. But the mystery didn't last long, because I know what my biggest secret is. I know the thing that I NEVER share with anyone, the thing that embarrasses and humiliates me. The numbers on the scale. I do not ever tell anyone how much I weigh. EVER. So, when this idea presented itself my knee jerk reaction was "HECK NO!". But the notion has remained in the back of my mind. It won't let go of me, so I am going to do it. I am going to give you the numbers I hate the most in this world.

Current weight: 256.6lbs
Fasting blood sugar: 125


At the first of October I started a new weight loss plan. It was simple really, I went from 3 large meals a day to 5 to 6 much smaller meals and I started walking. Before I started adding steps to my day I was averaging about 2500 steps (I have a very sedentary job). That is NOT much. I wanted to get in at least 10,000 a day (still working on that!) so I started walking in the mornings before work, often times standing in front of the TV (like being on a treadmill, only no treadmill required). At first my blood sugar went nuts, so I had to really monitor it and my diet closely. It has leveled out now, which makes things much easier. Prior to October, my fasting blood sugar was running around 140 to 150 in the mornings. (For those not in the "know", that is high. Normal blood sugar usually stays around 70-90 and anything above about 125 is considered diabetic.) So, I am very happy with my 125 this morning.

Now, my weight, that is another matter. At the first of October I weighed in at 264. It took 2 weeks to lose 4lbs and then 2 days to gain back 2. And that is the way it has been, I will lose a few pounds and gain a little back over the weekend (relaxing too much). I get so frustrated by the whole process! I am having to fight for every single ounce I lose, and I HATE every second of it. I know without a doubt that if I am not careful I could gain back every bit of the 8 pounds I have lost in a matter of hours! It is frustrating and embarrassing and makes me feel like a fat slob and a failure..

That last sentence is precisely why I think I need to share these numbers here. It is embarrassing. It is frustrating. And I do feel like a failure. Going "public" is scarey. It puts me in a very vulnerable place. I am going to risk it because I feel like hiding these numbers gives them too much power over me. So, I am going to try this "weigh in" every Wednesday. I don't know how long it will last. I hope a long time, with numbers that continue to decrease (realistically I know that won't always be the case). I hope I don't bore you too much, I hope you understand where I am coming from and why I need to do this. And I hope you will pray for me.