I don't know the answers.
What I believe is this: God cares more for our soul than for our bodies or our physical circumstances. We are not promised blue skies and sunshine. If anything we are promised stormy days. We are also promised that we are never alone during those storms. Every moment of this life is a choice, an opportunity. We choose how to face our problems. We choose either to go it alone or reach out for His hand. And the choices we make shape us. It is the journey, the shaping of our soul and spirit that matters. It is our walk with God, that building of a true and deep relationship that He seeks to have with us that matters.
I believe this. But it doesn't make the "why" moments go away. It doesn't make the journey less painful. And yet I believe. And I cling to His hand.
P.S. Don't forget to check out my Thursday Thankfulness post.